confused????

Well, as you know my gf and I have broken up and it has been awhile now. She finally started talking to me again and it was the best feeling in the world. It is hard though because boundaries get blurred and things are said. Everything I say to her I mean. I do still love her and miss her tremendously. I am not sure what to do anymore. I think I just need to get my head around things. I wish things were different and I wish it was easier for us to be together, but as it stands now things are almost impossible. I feel horrible because I keep hurting her and amidst my own hurt, I hurt even more because all I want is for her to be here, for all of this to go away and for life to be easy, but life isn't easy. Life is hard and it only gets harder the older you get.